Finding Serenity Page 6

  “Fuck. Ah…”

  “Harder, baby. I like it hard.” Her legs are small, lithe, weighed nothing as he moves her knee over his shoulder, gripping down to penetrate harder so that she can feel all of him, all that is hers.

  He loves the sharp yanks she makes against his hair, the way her fingers twist tight, the way she moans when his hold on her hips tighten.

  “I want to ride you, baby. Move us.”

  And he does, taking her down, settling over his lap as he leans back against the headboard. He loves the way her soft, pink tits bounce against him as she rocks, he can almost fit her small waist in one hand as he guides her over his cock.

  Her movements increase, those glorious breasts moving faster. She is close, so close and Vaughn knows what she needs, what she likes best.

  Her nipple comes easily into his mouth, fits between his teeth and she bows back, her movements jarring, disjointed as her climax builds with each small nibble he makes against her.

  “Fuck baby, yes. Just like there. Bite it. Ah, oh God.”

  And Vaughn lets her ride the wave but it isn’t complete, is left unfinished. He increases his effort, kisses her chest, just between her small tits, loving the way the salt on her skin tastes, frowning when that taste transforms, becomes tangy and metallic.

  The blood is everywhere. On her chest, on his tongue, in his hair and Vaughn screams, the terror of his love battered, broken and he is helpless, forcing his eyes shut as bloodied limbs fall on the bed, as he watches her heart beating in her open chest—the fray of skin, of muscle, the splintered remains of flesh sliced by a bullet’s quick trajectory. Then she is crying; he hears the screaming cries every time he fell asleep.

  “Help me, Vaughn. Please. Save me. Save me.”

  And then she is nowhere, everywhere, laying next to the kid, PFC Tony Williams, fresh from Basic, scared as he lays bleeding on the ground, bullets and shrapnel flying over their heads. His legs are missing, arm hanging from his shoulder as he gurgles out pain, torment.

  “Winchester, help me, man… I can’t feel it. I can’t… feel anything.”

  The gurgle deepens, sounds wetter and Vaughn reaches for him, for her, scared that he cannot help. He cannot help either of them.

  It never varies. It never stops. The constant loop of those words gut him, make him feel less, make him feel nothing when sleep is denied. “Save me.”

  And now, in that odd nightmare space where sleep had come, but at a price, Vaughn hears the words yet again. He sees thin, pale fingers lunging toward him, gripping, trying in vain to take hold one last time. Just as that cold grip of deathly bone skims across his wrist and the constant refrain of “save me” shouts with a brittle, angry voice, Vaughn wakes.

  “No!” he screams, jerking his arms away from the ghosts that haunt his dreams. “No,” he says again, this time a little calmer, a bit less anxious. “Damn.” Head down, face hidden behind his palms, Vaughn wipes the sweat from his skin, tries to still that quick shake moving his fingers. “Suck it up, man,” he tells himself.

  He doesn’t look up. He knows his sister has come again, that the light pooling into the living room is from the kitchen where she has set up an impromptu workspace, never able to really let her job stay at the office.

  “You okay?” his sister says, sitting next to him on the sofa.

  “Fine,” he lies, not eager to have her worry overtake them both. It’s what she does and the more concern she displays, the heavier Vaughn’s guilt surges. “I’m fine, Viv. Really.”

  Viv rubs his shoulder, hand firm, encouraging. Tonight she is dressed down, comfortable in cotton PJ pants and a cardigan over a silk tank. It’s not how his elegant sister generally looks, but when she’s home, a rarity as of late, Viv forgoes the crisp black suits that are part of her district attorney “uniform.” To him, though, she doesn’t look much different than she did at twenty-five when he left for basic training. She is still thin, though age has rounded her hips. Her eyes are still bright and cobalt blue, though time has left traces of hard work on the corners of her lids. “You always say that, but the dreams keep coming. I wish you’d take the medicine they gave you at the VA.”

  He doesn’t want to hear it again. Vaughn doesn’t need another lecture. “Thirsty,” he says, ignoring the low frown moving Viv’s mouth. He leaves the sofa and thunders into the kitchen, grabbing a glass to fill with cold water from the fridge.

  “Vaughn,” his sister begins, but stops short when he shakes his head.

  “I don’t like how they make me feel. I get lazy. All I wanna do is sleep when I’m on those pills.” He takes a swig from the glass, slams down half in one gulp.

  “It’s not healthy, you having these nightmares.” Viv’s fingers on his back only makes his unease double. “I’m worried about you.”

  “Don’t be.” He grips her hand in a quick squeeze before he faces her. “Look, sis, I’ll be fine. I figure the more I work out, the more exhausted I’ll be. Too exhausted to dream.”

  Viv doesn’t look convinced. She leans against the island, arms folded tight and that pinched expression makes the slight wrinkles on her face exaggerate. “It’s been at least a week since you had one.”

  “Yep. I know, but I didn’t kill it today at the studio. Had some stuff to take care of.” Another swig of water and Vaughn takes a breath. “I just got distracted. It’s my own fault.”

  “Distracted?” Vaughn can read the hidden meaning behind her question. Her lips are no longer dipped into a frown and the dimple in her right cheek is dented deep.

  “Don’t give me that look,” he answers her, putting the now empty glass in the dishwasher. “Yes, distraction. It happens now and again.”

  Viv pulls her loose sweater tight over her thin waist and jumps onto the island. “Does this distraction have anything to do with your little visitor?”

  “Nope.”

  Vaughn hates when his sister laughs at him like this. It always makes him feel like a child. “You are a God-awful liar, little brother. I can always tell.” Her laughter only increases when Vaughn flips her the bird. “You know who she is. This little infatuation won’t help with what you have to do.”

  “It’s not about her or what I have to do.” Vaughn knows his voice was too loud. Viv flinches at his yell and he instantly he feels like an asshole. “Sorry,” he says, rubbing her arm.

  If his sister is upset by the small break of his temper, she doesn’t comment on it. Instead, she moves her manicured nails through the back of her hair and curls her arms tight, as though she’s suddenly caught a chill. “You need to get out more. Go somewhere besides your studio.”

  “I have been.” He leans against the island at Viv’s side and picks up the remote to the small TV on the counter, aimlessly flipping through the channels with the volume cut low. “You’re just too busy to notice.” He stands up when she winces, as though he’s slapped her. “Hey, I’m kidding.”

  “I don’t mean to leave you on your own so much. You’ve barely been home a year and I’m always working.”

  “Your job is important, I get that.” Vaughn makes sure she knows he isn’t really upset and squeezes her hand. “Besides, who says I want you hanging around? Maybe I’ll pick up a hot chick and bring her home. I don’t need you around cock blocking me.”

  “Yeah, I’m sure that’s what you want to do. And no self-respecting woman would blanche at a twenty-six year man bringing her back to his sister’s place, right?”

  “Wow, Viv. That’s below the belt.”

  Again, she laughs, pushing him out of her way as she rustles through the stack of paper near her laptop on the other side of the island. “That’s what you get for yelling at me, ass.” Vaughn is distracted by Sports Center recapping the Minnesota Twins and their game against the Phillies as his sister shuffles her files. “Anyway, I’m only teasing you. But I meant what I said. This case requires a lot of my attention and if I’m not around, it’s not because I don’t like your company.” Vaughn nods, not
really listening to his sister as she continues on with her excuses. “But I don’t want you staying cooped up here either. You need to socialize.”

  Aaron Hicks catches a lightning fast ball to the outfield as Vaughn nods to Viv once more. “I do. Been playing in an amateur rugby league at the Y.” He switches the channel, but glances at his sister as she types on her laptop. “Dickie Collins organized it. Remember him from high school?” Viv frowns, but dips her chin, acknowledging his question. She never liked Collins. Always said he was a bit of a chauvinist. “Anyway, we aren’t terrible. Won a few matches and there’s a tournament in Cavanagh next weekend.”

  “In Cavanagh?” Vaughn narrows his eyes at Viv when her smug little smirk returns to her face. “Isn’t that where she lives?”

  He exhales, gearing up for what he knows will be another lecture. “Yes. She’s a student at the university.”

  “She’s off limits.”

  “I’m not going to date her.” He throws the remote onto the island. “She’s a job. Just a job. Jesus, you’re the one that got me into all this.”

  “And I appreciate your help, I do.” She grabs his hand. “I just want you to remember what’s at stake here. Emotions get messed in the middle and everything will go straight to hell. I just don’t want six months of work to blow up in our faces.”

  Sleeplessness begins to overtake Vaughn. That and Viv’s constant nagging. He can only shut out her stern frown with a quick swipe of his hands over his eyes. “It won’t. I’ll do what I have to and you’ll get your witness.”

  He knows his sister isn’t convinced. Another argument brews in the room, hangs on the air circling through the AC vent, but before any bitching leaves her mouth, the name “Cavanagh” echoing from a news report brings both of their eyes toward the TV.

  “Authorities at Cavanagh University tell WLMV that there were no serious injuries late this afternoon in a small fire on campus.” Vaughn turns up the volume as the station flashes video of the Cavanagh campus and a small building just off the main street. “Walter Lambert with the Cavanagh University Police Department tells our Melissa Thompson that they believe the fire stemmed from a prank gone awry.”

  The screen changes, pulls up the form of a wiry looking guy with muddy brown hair and watery black eyes in a puke green Cavanagh police uniform. His badge reads: W. Lambert.

  “We believe a few kids may have thought it was funny to bust a window in one of the administration offices with a lit bottle. The incendiary landed on a stack of documents and caused a small fire in the office. Workers were able to extinguish the fire before any real damage was caused, but we are still investigating the incident.”

  Red and blue lights from several police cruisers paint across the screen and the camera scans to the building, a non-descript, brown structure with a small group of bystanders looking past yellow police tape. When the camera pans left, Vaughn bolts upright as Mollie and her friend Layla stand near the cruiser, blankets thrown over their shoulders.

  “Shit,” he says, darting into his room to grab his cell off the bedside table. He’s already dialed Mollie’s number by the time he returns to the kitchen.

  Viv is at his side, her eyes veering from the screen to the phone in Vaughn’s hand. “Is that her?”

  “Yep.” When Mollie’s recorded voice picks up, Vaughn immediately disconnects the call and re-dials. “Come on, pick up the damn phone.” He doesn’t understand why his hands have suddenly started to shake or why his heart is pumping somewhere around his Adam’s apple. “Shit, Mollie. Answer, dammit.”

  Sayo is crying. Mollie tries to console her, telling her it’s fine, that she and Layla aren’t hurt in the slightest, but the elegant beauty can’t seem to help herself. The constant flash of the police cruiser’s light, the mild smell of smoke and the loud calls of firemen bustling around the sidewalk has their friend reverting back twelve years before to the fire that killed her grandparents.

  “You shouldn’t be here, honey,” Mollie tells a sniffling Sayo.

  “It’s stupid, I know,” Sayo says. “I’m looking at you both, but shit, my hands won’t stop shaking.” Mollie takes the useless blanket off her shoulders and covers Sayo’s thin body.

  “It’s not stupid,” she tells her. “That’s a messed up thing you saw when you were a kid. Shit like that sticks with you.” Sayo nods and makes quick swipes at her wet face before Mollie tips her chin up. “Hey, seriously, why don’t you let Autumn and Declan take you home? We’re fine, sweetie.”

  When Sayo doesn’t move, just darts her eyes back toward the fire truck, Mollie nods Layla toward them. Her best friend grabs Sayo’s hand. “It’s fine. It really wasn’t that big of a deal. Mollie and I were coming back from a—” she takes a moment to meet Mollie’s eyes and understands that warning of a frown to mean she shouldn’t mention what they did to Donovan’s car. “An errand. I still had an hour left on my shift and we were just sitting around watching the clock when the window broke and the bottle landed on a stack of financial aid apps. Mollie was the one who grabbed the fire extinguisher.” Layla shows Sayo her hands, palms up. “See? Not a scratch on me.” She pulls Mollie’s wrist forward and pushes back her best friend’s sleeves. “Molls is fine too. No big.”

  “I know,” Sayo says. “I know,” she whispers to herself. Then, she inhales, straightens her shoulders. “I heard the sirens and saw the fire truck and just lost it. I knew you were working today,” this she says to Layla, “and when the truck stopped in front of the building, I just thought… well—”

  Sayo’s explanation is interrupted by Declan and Autumn’s approach. Mollie smiles as the Irishman scans the perimeter of the scene, looking for something that he keeps to himself. For all her independence and need to take care of herself, Mollie is grateful for her friends’ presence. Declan is their protector, whether they like it or not. Tonight, she doesn’t mind so much.

  “Walter says to hang back a bit,” Declan says, as Autumn comforts Sayo with an arm around her shoulders.

  “What for?” Mollie doesn’t know what Layla’s boyfriend could possibly want now. He’d been first on the scene, his immediate frown had Mollie on edge and his attitude about her being there during the fire only solidified her opinion that Walter was a jerk. His endless questions about the attack had been answered over an hour ago.

  Somehow, he’d turn this around and make it her fault. He always did. Mollie had no clue what her best friend saw in the guy, but she’d keep her mouth shut. It just wasn’t worth the fight it would cause to complain to Layla about her boyfriend.

  “Dunno. He says he has some information for you two.” Autumn looks at Layla and Mollie.

  “Why don’t you two take Sayo home?” Mollie asks Declan. She looks at Autumn. “She doesn’t need to be here for this.”

  “I’m okay,” Sayo says.

  “Mollie’s right. There’s nothing we can do right now.” Sayo would listen to Autumn, at least that’s what Mollie hoped. Their friend wasn’t weak. None of them were, but Sayo in particular wasn’t the best in panic situations. Autumn catches Mollie’s eye, a silent agreement that she’d take care of Sayo.

  Declan hands Autumn his keys and kisses her. “I’ll catch a ride with Layla and Mollie. I want to hear what Walter has to say.”

  “You worried about something?” Autumn asks him, but takes his keys anyway.

  Declan hesitates and his expression has taken on a frown; a glimmer of concern that makes him look older than he actually is. If Mollie didn’t know him better, she might disregard that look, but she did and that expression told her his worry extended beyond making sure no one was hurt. “I don’t like this happening so soon after her break in.” His head moves toward Mollie. “Something’s off about this.”

  “Deco, it was probably just some kids,” Mollie tells him, seeing how Sayo’s eyes have grown wide. His worry wouldn’t help calm their friend.

  “What about Donovan?” Layla looks beyond the gathered crowd as though the man in question wou
ld pounce from the dark at any moment.

  Declan’s laugh is light, easy. “You might drive him barmy, but he’d never try to catch you on fire, love.”

  “He kidnapped my dog.”

  Collectively, the friends groan. Layla wouldn’t let that go, but now wasn’t the time or place to recap all the insane things Donovan and Layla have done to each other over the past few months. “Layla, stop,” Mollie warns.

  As though he’d been summoned, Donovan breaks through the small crowd. He has a wild, manic look in his eyes that is only highlighted by the sheen of silver glitter that covers his face. Each step he takes dusts more glitter from his body, but it doesn’t disappear. In fact, it only collects in his shirt collar and around his arms.

  “Oh shit,” Layla yelps, darting first behind Mollie and then when Donovan gets closer, behind Declan’s looming frame.

  “Come here you little brat,” he yells at Layla, bypassing his best friend to grab hold of Layla’s arm, which she easily diverts.

  “What did you do now?” Autumn asks Layla, who moves behind her, pulling on the hem of her shirt.

  “You can’t hide from me,” Donovan tells Layla. “Did you do that shit to my car? What the actual hell is wrong with you?”

  When Layla abandons the protective circle of her friends, Donovan chases after her, finally catching her wrist and their voices ring out against the quiet of the night. World War III has just begun.

  Mollie’s attention returns to her friends and she releases a long sigh at their expectant stares. “Glitter,” she tells them. “In his AC vents with the setting on ‘Max.’”

  “His GTO?” Declan asks. When Mollie nods, he closes his eyes. “Fecking hell, that’s a new low.”

  “And how did she get into his car?” Autumn asks Mollie, but before she can answer, Walter approaches.

  Autumn gives Declan a quick kiss, tells Mollie she’d call her later and she and Sayo move through the crowd and toward Declan’s Mustang. Mollie watches them go, catching sight of Layla and Donovan’s epic row and the thinning crowd. On the street, cars move at a snail’s pace, some pausing to investigate the scene, some blaring horns to hurry along the bottle neck of traffic; the low rumble of engines and a particularly loud backfire from a black car eventually disappear and Mollie returns her attention to Walter and Declan.